At some point I've got to wonder whether or not it's worth it. If you just can't keep up with a project, are constantly behind and it begins to feel like a chore...one of those things that takes a deep sign before you force yourself to dig in...is it really something you should keep on your to do list?
Yes, this summer project feels a little like that right now. As does blogging. Taking pictures is not the challenge, but I want dearly to slow down and make just a few notes to go with the moment. To give these pictures a little more meaning. Slowing down appears to be completely against my nature, but I will keep swimming against the current for now.
We've had a particularly busy week, which is perhaps why I am so darn tired. We had company come for the 4th. Company drains me. I'm a pretty unorganized slob, and let's face it, you can only hide it so long when someone stays in your house a few days. It's like trying to hold your gut in constantly, 24 hours a day, for 4 or 5 days. But it is worth it, of course, for time with family. And my kids with their cousins...it is always a joy to see that bond. Those are memories I cherish from my own childhood.
And so we chased chickens and fireflies, lit sparklers and backyard fireworks, swam, hiked, explored the local sites, played games and made memories. I hope those are the things everyone remembers...not the clutter hidden under the bed or popping out of closets!
And then we were back to just 5 kids again. And we were also into the garden and about to be buried in zucchini, peppers, cucumbers, blueberries and raspberries! No rest for the weary!