Whoa. There's nothing quite as life changing as giving birth. The things it does to your body, the empowering act of actually bringing a new life into the world...the way everything just seems to change. Even if you've done it before...perhaps it's even more powerful having done it before...and realizing just how incredible it is to do it all again.
I wish I could say that it was easier...but not so. This time, labor was intense and long and while we got there in the end, it was hard not to feel a bit like I was failing somehow. Seems silly now, but the others were such a blur, so fast and furious that I didn't much think about the details. This time, I was stuck at 9 cms for hours...and the pushing, oh I just couldn't manage and it took forever. I know, here he is and whatever happened it was worth it. Whether I scared half the hospital with my primal yelling or not. These things happen in the name of birthing a baby.
My husband was an absolute rock, and if anything came from the experience it was a renewed love and appreciation for him. I couldn't have done it without him. Our baby boy weighted in at over 8 & 1/2 pounds and was 21 inches long and is a little darling. It has been such a joy to experience him joining our family, and he is a lucky little guy to have all this love around him.
More to come with the siblings!